Blog Twelve - Short Essay 2: Draft

                The drive was too short. It could have taken a lifetime to drive there and it still would have been a short drive. There were no words spoken, there was nothing to say, there was nothing anyone can say that would make that day better. The crowded streets gave me recognition of where I was and where I was going. We kept getting closer. The lights inside were bright almost blinding, as if it was supposed to give off a happy vibe. There was no happiness, it was just a sullen atmosphere. The whole building gave off an unmistakable odor, there was no possible way to pretend that you were somewhere else because the smell was constant. It was depressing. It was goodbye. The room was quiet, but it sounded so loud. The door opening and closing letting me know someone else had come. The noise outside was of horns honking and people shouting, it was a welcoming sound. It was much better than then the noise in the room. Black, no matter what way you turned, you saw black. But not her, she was dressed in green, her hands folded over her heart. The soft cries coming from everyone were louder than a whisper, yet it sounded like everyone was screaming. But not her. She no longer yelled. She no longer whispered. She no longer cried. 

Blog Eleven

Ideas for Short Essay Two

Last week in class I read aloud the sad piece I wrote about a funeral and the loss of someone very important to me. I think I want to expand on that one. I think there could be great detail in that one and it could work well with the length it needs to be.

Blog Ten - Short Essay One: Draft

Danielle Zingalis

Short Essay One - Draft

 

Grandpa

 

 

            The drive from our house to theirs was so long. When you’re at such a young age, a forty-five minute drive is a lifetime. We were getting closer, so close. We were finally off the bridge and passing the cramped streets with condensed building. We had finally made it down their street and after my father had skillfully parallel parked the car, my mom said we could get out of the car. Our seatbelts couldn’t come off fast enough.

 

 Chrissy and I used to run to him as soon as we got through the front door. We would run through the cold, white hallway and into the living room. As soon as my foot touched the outdated, but still so soft brown rug, it would creak and I would lean my hand on the velvet wallpaper as I continued to run.

 

She would sit in the kitchen, at the head of the table with her cane in one hand and a cigarette in the other. We would run into the kitchen and the creaking would suddenly stop, we were no longer on the carpet, but the old tile. We were getting closer. Chrissy and I would look at her and smile and continue to run, we would say hi to her later, we wanted to see him first.

 

We’re so close to him. Just one more room. Running through the kitchen and past the little hallway, we made it. The walls were covered in wooden paneling and the carpet was green. He was there already standing up from the gray couch with bits of reds and yellows woven through. Chrissy and I would run into him and hug him so tightly. He took our hands and brought us to the couch and had us look behind one of the throw pillows and behind it was a little handheld videogame. He was just as excited to see us as we were to see him.

Blog Nine - Long Essay: Final Draft

Danielle Zingalis

Long Essay 2 – Final Draft

 

 

 

Different Sides of the Same Door

 

 

            We were always different. As babies and toddlers we were dressed in matching clothes and had the same hairstyles, but looking the same and acting the same is so different. I was always the one to walk to my own speed and Chrissy wasn’t. All that didn’t matter though, it didn’t matter how different we acted or how different our personalities were, and we were always inseparable. When I tell people that I am a twin, there is something that enamors people about that. It’s something they think is so unique and they always have questions. Who’s older? Are you two similar? Are you best friends? The hardest question to answer that I get asked a lot is “do you like being a twin,” it’s such a difficult question to answer. Not difficult because the answer is no, but because being a twin is something I’ve always been. I don’t know how to feel about not being a twin, but what I do know is that we are two total opposites. 

            Chrissy and I were born on a Saturday via a caesarian section. My mom told me and Chrissy that when one night when she was lying in bed, she felt me completely turn my body and becoming in breach. As if having two babies wasn’t going to be hard enough, I had to turn over and make things more complicated. I wasn’t even born yet and I was already doing things my own way. It has always been that way, Chrissy and I have always been different and we never saw that as a problem, no one did. Being different is what makes us so great, it’s what makes our relationship so great.   

            Back when VHS’s were still popular and home videos were something used to capture major moments, my dad was always there with a camera in his hands. A few years ago we were watching some home videos and there was one that seemed to have given me that “ah-ha” moment where I saw I was always this way. It was Halloween and we were at a school participating in the holiday activities for the kids. I couldn’t have been more than five years old. The game that was shown on the video was a representation of musical chairs, instead of chairs being used there were large paper squares on the floor. The same concepts applies for the game, once the music stops everyone had to get on a square. It seemed that I didn’t like the rules because once the music started playing I went to stand on a square. I didn’t want to play the game by the rules they had, I was so young and already walking to my own beat. It was during that time that Chrissy and I were inseparable, we were in the same preschool class and kindergarten class and all of our time was spent together. When you spend that much time together, time together at home and countless hours at school, there is no room for individuality. However, it was during those truly inseparable moments that our relationship grew. We have the friendship we have now because of the countless hours we spent together when we were younger.    

            It wasn’t until elementary school that they decided to split us up. As inseparable as we were, the school thought we should be interacting with other students our age as if the school knew what was best for me and my sister. Nonetheless we were separated and put into different classes. Maybe it helped us gain some independence, we were locked at the hip since birth and maybe a little space did us some good, but I can’t say for sure. All I know is that whether the school knew what they were doing or not when it came to our interactions with other students, Chrissy and I were still inseparable and a different class wasn’t going to change that. We had this connection that unless you’re a twin, you wouldn’t be able to understand. We didn’t need to be attached to each other twenty-four seven to know we were best friends. We didn’t need to be attached to each other to know that the other wasn’t far away. If I needed her or if she needed me, we weren’t far apart.

            By the time we went to High School, we couldn’t be separated anymore. There wasn’t enough classes and too many students. It was nice to be able to have a class with my twin again after having being separated in school for so long. It’s so hard to say for certain when we became the people we are today, but I do think it’s safe to say that by High School, Chrissy and I were both set in our ways. During the four High School years that we shared, we both had the same friends and a few that were just mine or just hers. It was also during those years that people would refer to Chrissy as “the nice one” and me as “the mean one,” and I was fine with that. It was the truth. That was all a part of our personalities, Chrissy has always been a tolerant and forgiving person, it’s something I love about her. Me, on the other hand, I was far from forgiving people easily. I always knew how to hold on to a grudge. I had no tolerance for stupidity or practical jokes. My mom always says that my humor always has been on a different level than everyone in the family.

            I like to think about what may happen before it happens, especially in a situation I haven’t been in before. I think about the consequences and the repercussions, I map out everything that could possibly go wrong and Chrissy is willing to try anything and think later. I really love that about her. I love that she is so willing to be open about new experiences and willing to try anything. I am too paranoid to do things like that, I always think about what could go wrong rather than what could go right. With all my irrational fears, I think me being slightly paranoid is normal for me, but not for Chrissy. In a way, because we are so different, we protect each other.

            When it comes to being in the dark, having bugs in the house, having people call me names, I know Chrissy will be there to make sure that I don’t fall. She’ll sit with me so I won’t be alone when the sun goes down, she’ll have a napkin ready to kill the bug once she hears me screaming, and she will never let anyone get away with talking bad about me. I would do the same for her, there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for her. When she is willing to dive in head first, I hold her back and tell her to think before she acts and sometimes it’s okay to dive in head first and she will be there to give me that push to jump. I never let anyone bad mouth my sister to me in any way, and if she needed help with anything, I would always help her. We are two different people, but when it comes to protecting the other we couldn’t be more alike.

            Chrissy is a student at Kean enrolled in the Art and Education program. Even when she was younger, she always had this amazing talent for drawing and painting. If she is given an object to draw, she will draw to par, it will look absolutely stunning. I, on the other hand, don’t have an artistic bone in my body. In High School, I had to take a drawing class and she happened to be in the same class with me, she always helped me. She always sat next to me and helped me with my projects and I was so appreciative. I was always the more academic type, not the artistic type. I would much rather write a paper than anything else, writing always came easy to me. Chrissy struggles when it comes to her writing, she always tries her hardest and then I will take her papers and look over them and correct them. I like that we are so different in that artistic and academic way, she uses the left side of her brain and I am on the right. One of my favorite aspects about our relationship is that we are different when it comes to how we excel at school. It only shows how different we truly are and how there isn’t anything we wouldn’t do for each other when we need help.

            I always wonder what our lives would be like if we were the same, if we thought the same way and acted the same way. Would we be as close as we are? Would we be able to tolerate each other the way that we do now? It seems like it would be boring. Who would want a carbon copy of themselves down to the way we act? Maybe it’s because we are so different that we get along so well, it would be so strange to have this amazing relationship with her if we were so alike. I know I can go to her and talk to her about anything and she will be understanding and calm. With me, it would be completely different. If she came to me to talk about anything, she knows that whatever answer or advice I give her will be what she needs to hear and not what she wants to hear. It’s not always about being the “same” all the time. When people think of twins they can often think about dressing the same and having the same hairstyle and being the identical version of the other. That’s not who Chrissy and I are. We may share the same clothes, but that’s about it. We are so different and we think so differently, it’s the reason I think we are so close. We balance each other out and keep each other on steady ground. It’s always about being there for the other person when they may fall, it’s nice to know I have her to catch me in case I ever fall and she knows that I would do the same for her.   

            We are often asked if we are identical twins because we look so much alike, but we’re not. We are fraternal, everything about us is different. Everything, but our birthday.  

            “How do you like being a twin” is the hardest question that I get asked by people when they meet me and Chrissy or they find out I am a twin. I’ve always been a twin and I will always be a twin, a question like that doesn’t have answer. The relationship I have with my sister isn’t something that can be duplicated and explained in one sitting, we are both complex and have a complex relationship, but it’s ours. What she and I have, no other set of twins in the world will have. Our relationship, our bond, it’s can’t be duplicated.